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by Meri Everitt

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Album contains the America EP, the Lovelovelove/GTFO EP, The Celestine Sessions and 2 self produced tracks

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released April 4, 2011

Performance/Writing:

Meri Everitt - Songwriting, Vocals, Guitar
Katie Vaughan - Bass/Drums on America and Beautiful Unused
Ben Mottershead - Guitars on the Celestine sessions (summer rain, put the pieces back, feel free, every car and How I learnt to do it.
Tim-G - Guitar and Bass on Lovelovelove

Production:

Meri Everitt (I hope you don't mind, War on myself) Johhny @The Mill Studios (America, Beautiful Unused, Rescue - All recorded as 1st prize in Norfolk songwriting/performance competition), Tim-G (All the rest!)

Thank you to everyone who has encouraged and discouraged me - it all made me stronger. thanks to my parents for having me and muscifying me (and a LOT more) and thanks to Daisaku Ikeda for the motivation to be myself. Thanks to Ali for being there always. Thanks to Katie, Tim and Ben for the music and friendship.

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Track Name: Beautiful Unused
Look at me the beautiful unused
All the people I don't want
Look at this body and this face
Thinking of me when they masturbate

But the one I want
He doesn't see
This beauty before him
So no wonder I fantasise about
One who tells me
That I'm beautiful from his heart
And I feel wasted
I'm all alone here
I'm all alone here

It's good to know who I am
I'm nobody's whore but I'd like to be
I'm nobody's muse but I'd like to be
I need somebody equal to me

In effort in love in care
I don't like dishonesty
And I don't like always doing everything
No affection no care no nothing
Just you doing doing your own stuff
No affection no care no nothing
Just you doing
Track Name: Rescue
I sit here upon an imaginary peak
Taking stock and thinking over what has happened here
Did I hear you call my name as I walked up to the snow?
Did I see you running after me, were you ever there?
Can you feel my words around you my warm words upon your neck?
Do you feel a chill and shudder whilst I think what to say next?
When you close your eyes to sleep do you see me there beside you?
When you sleep do you dream of me lying there beside you?

Can you feel a repetition in the air?
Do I hate you if I act like I don't care?
How can you take me over without noticing a part of you is gone?
When you notice do you search for my secret hiding place?
You must first undo the chains that hold me to this hand
Can you feel the current in them. Oh you try you can't break free
so come rescue what you're missing and alongside rescue me
Track Name: America
Slaggin off America, isn't gonna get us too far
And me nit picking your sensitive bits won't make me rich
Who wants to escape? Oh I'm crazy in love
Give me a break, I'm crazy bout us
Yes that means you, you're part of my song

You may know this already, but i'll tell you again
You're strong, I'm strong, they're strong. We're strong

You may know this already, but i'll tell you again
You're strong, I'm strong, they're strong. We're strong

Do you say no war and then fight with your partner?
Right here is where peace starts, right here is where it starts
How many times have you needed a hand to hold?
It's hard being vulnerable, it's hard on the edge
Everybody wants to be part of something

You may know this already, but i'll tell you again
You're strong, I'm strong, they're strong. We're strong

You may know this already, but i'll tell you again
You're strong, I'm strong, they're strong. We're strong

I fight to write this song, cos I've got voices says it's wrong
I'm so unbearably angry that I can't make you happy
But if I limit my own life, Ive got nothing to share
Apart from my sadness, and my despair
How do you help people who don't wanna be helped

You may know this already, but i'll tell you again
You're strong, I'm strong, they're strong. We're strong
You may know this already, but i'll tell you again
You're strong, I'm strong, they're strong. We're strong


You may know this already, but i'll tell you again
You're strong, I'm strong, they're strong. We're strong
You may know this already, but i'll tell you again
You're strong, I'm strong, they're strong. We're strong
Track Name: Every Car
Every car I hear I hope it’s yours
Every footstep outside the window I hope it’s yours
You’re probably drunk and content
But tonight I am not merry

I come home hoping you called but you never do
I’d call you but the sound of my voice seems to send you in to hatred
The sound of your voice makes me…
you don’t wanna know. You don’t wanna know

I’ll sit trying to turn my mind around, around, around
But it keeps going through, through what we’ve been through
Pushing past everything bad
Focusing on all that was successful

Already it’s was not know it’s not forever
I didn’t want forever, you just don’t want now
I know you’ll regret it, god I’ll regret it too
I wish I could stop it but I’ve no power
I can try manipulation but with no power

I come home hoping you called but you never do
I’d call you but the sound of my voice seems to send you in to hatred
The sound of your voice makes me…
you don’t wanna know. You don’t wanna know

Every car I hear I hope it’s yours
Every footstep outside the window I hope it’s yours
You’re probably drunk and content
But tonight, but tonight I am not meri
But tonight, but tonight, but tonight I'm not myself
Track Name: Put The Pieces Back
You listen, I see your tears
Behind my smile, I feel my tears, well in my head
Aching to fall out
Knowing it was totally inappropriate

Anyone close, Want them gone, Leave me alone
Anyone close, Want them gone, Leave me alone
Get off me, Just got off on me

All I could feel was your strong arms around me
All I wanted and all I felt came next
I just kept on talking always kept on talking
Like you weren’t important at all

Anyone close, Want them gone, Leave me alone
Anyone close, Want them gone, Leave me alone
Get off me, Just got off on me

Guess I need to want all of it
Then someone will know who I am
And it will be ok
To be sad sometimes
Cos sometimes life is sad
I just wanted, just wanted, just wanted to put those pieces back
Ahhh ah ah ah ah

Anyone close, Want them gone, Leave me alone
Anyone close, Want them gone, Leave me alone
Get off me, Just got off on me

I’m just one of those people
Who cries a lot
But I want to be my own doctor, then I never need hurt
If anyone goes away ever again
If anyone goes away ever again
Track Name: Summer Rain
There’s a kinda agony
In this pure consistency
There’s a kinda pain
As I laugh in the sweet summer rain

Sometimes I’d like to share it
Sometimes it’s only for me
Sometimes I’d like to fuck everyone to see if it makes me happy
But I know what I’ve done before
I know where I’ve gone wrong before

And now my determination is so resolute on paper
But when I’m sitting feeling
Just a little bit lonely

I just want a person to share with, a person to care with
A person to sit beside me so I feel comfortable so free
But I know I just gotta get me a little piece of me
And my dreams will no longer hold me chained they’ll be reality

As soon as I forget them
As soon as I forget them
As soon as I forget them
And start living instead

I’m on the right path making all the right causes
Doing good this time I’m not crying too much
All I need to do is let go, just let go of my shit
Let go of all around me and just be just be free
Track Name: Feel Free
So why would I step back into uncertainty
Each time i go to call you I'm hurting already
I'm starving myself just thinking of seeing you
Unhealthy unhealthy addiction

I can't help myself
But I feel safer where I am

I feel free
I feel good
Feel excited
Independent
I feel free
I feel good
Feel excited
Independent

There's unfinished business and it's time to finish it
Eyes all blurred can't see to write
To set myself free perhaps i need to
It's complicated and feels like sacrifice

I feel free
I feel good
Feel excited
Independent
I feel free
I feel good
Feel excited
Independent
I feel free
I feel good
Feel excited
Independent
I feel free
I feel good
Feel excited
Independent

So i will be i will do i resolve this now
Never again never again will i let you tear my world out
From under me like you did before
You can't help it

I feel free
I feel good
Feel excited
Independent
I feel free
I feel good
Feel excited
Independent

I had to come in here
Back into this room
'Cos i was crying next door
Thinking about what i could've done
Track Name: How I Learnt To Do It
Then I see her. Loving her songs
Makes me jealous makes me feel like
I should just give up. When she had it all

Wanted her to go away But had to look after too
So I wasn’t too sure what to do
So loved with competition, loved with fighting
Just like mummy did, like daddy did
I learnt it, look how I learnt to do it

No wonder I was violent sometimes
No wonder I smoke trying not to kill people
So better to kill my self
So much better if I wasn’t here. Everyone would be happy

Wanted her to go away But had to look after too
So I wasn’t too sure what to do
So loved with competition, loved with fighting
Just like mummy did, like daddy did
I learnt it, look how I learnt to do it
Wanted her to go away But had to look after too
So I wasn’t too sure what to do
So loved with competition, loved with fighting
Just like mummy did, like daddy did
I learnt it, look how I learnt to do it

Arms hurting, Can’t do anything Driving like a maniac.
Can’t communicate. Trying to drag everyone else down
Never wanted to be better, till I got less attention
You said I would feel like this, Cos it’s just another. Of your creations

Wanted her to go away But had to look after too
So I wasn’t too sure what to do
So loved with competition, loved with fighting
Just like mummy did, like daddy did
I learnt it, look how I learnt to do it
Wanted her to go away But had to look after too
So I wasn’t too sure what to do
So loved with competition, loved with fighting
Just like mummy did, like daddy did
I learnt it, look how I learnt to do it
Track Name: Love Love Love
I don’t need your spare guitar and I don’t need your help,
I don’t need a thing from anyone
Cos I can do it myself
I just need love love love
I just need love love love
I just need love love love
I don’t need anything else

Everyone is self obsessed
Apart from a wise old few
And we all need wide screen washing machines
More than we need you

I don’t see much commitment
To friends or family
Is it that I push people away
Cos being close it scares me

I just need love love love
I just need love love love
I just need love love love
I don’t need anything else

I moved into this city and sometimes I wonder why
And I wish that it was darker here
So I could sleep at night
I’d love to write the most beautiful song
And move you all to tears

I just need love love love
I just need love love love
I just need love love love
I don’t need anything else
Track Name: Songs Of Peace
People singing songs of peace
think we're going back to the sixties
youthful musicians tryin to heal the age
people with great hearts erasing pain
there are people in prison turning it around
seein what they did
seeing how they went down
realising that it's only that experience
that would ever get them to this level of strength

I can never be a man
who bears his soul for all to see
the most beautiful thing i ever heard
you cried to make me happy
as a woman things are different
we don't get as much respect
but bear in mind this is a man's world
and take from me all that you can get
see me smiling and then you know
that today i let my tears flow
everything is equal and opposite
equally good and equally shit
and i'l enjoy my shit cos i'm on the way
to something happier today

There are people everywhere
turning into mountains
telling us the futures bright
these people aren't counting
the days before the holiday
the hours before home time
their living life to the fullest
I'm with them

I can never be a man
who bears his soul for all to see
the most beautiful thing i ever heard
you cried to make me happy
as a woman things are different
we don't get as much respect
but bear in mind this is a man's world
and take from me all that you can get
see me smiling and then you know
that today i let my tears flow
everything is equal and opposite
equally good and equally shit
and i'l enjoy my shit cos i'm on the way
to something happier today


I can never be a man
who bears his soul for all to see
the most beautiful thing i ever heard
you cried to make me happy
as a woman things are different
we don't get as much respect
but bear in mind this is a man's world
and take from me all that you can get
see me smiling and then you know
that today i let my tears flow
everything is equal and opposite
equally good and equally shit
and i'l enjoy my shit cos i'm on the way
to something happier today


I can never be a man
who bears his soul for all to see
the most beautiful thing i ever heard
you cried to make me happy
as a woman things are different
we don't get as much respect
but bear in mind this is a man's world
and take from me all that you can get
Track Name: Get The Fuck Off (Acoustic)
I know I'm touching on something
Reaching out to you with this voice
it doesn't mean you suddenly have permission
to touch my body whenever you please

Lets make this clear
get the fuck off me
Lets make this clear
just dont' touch me

We're in the same neighborhood
it doesnt mean your always welcome
if you entertain one fantasy
I can see it clearly

Lets make this clear
get the fuck off me
Lets make this clear
just dont' touch me

I'm just a person
searching for herself
i thought youd' listen
i thought youd hear
give up this chase am i doing the same
if i sing straight to you it means i feel safe

Lets make this clear
get the fuck off me
Lets make this clear
just dont' touch me

If i don't look at you it's because you think i'm special
but I'm not I'm just like you
If i don't look at you it's because you think i'm special
but I'm not I'm just like you
If i don't look at you it's because you think i'm special
but I'm not I'm just like you
If i don't look at you it's because you think i'm special
but I'm not I'm just like you

Lets make this clear
get the fuck off me
Lets make this clear
just dont' touch me
Track Name: War On Myself
shoot the fucking war planes down
i want to wage a war
i want to wage a war
on the war in myself
you know how to pull the plug
please don't die angel girl
i know you are waiting for me
i just want to feel happy
but i don't trust anybody
ohh
feels like I'm always losing
however hard i try
i'm always just a fucking failure
you did this mother
if i tell you
you can be a failure to
so it's better that i choose to love you
they're cutting down beautiful trees
but i just need to get some sleep
i just can't cope alone i feel
like i need someone to help me
but it's fucking true
so fuck you
I am not your baby
i was before
now i never will be
if you miss travelling so much
why do you stay
where you are
where you are
where you are
where you are
where you are
where you are
where you are
where you are
why do you stay
apple tree blossoms captivate me